Oh Felix, I did not know what to expect going into labor with you. Your sister’s births were so different from one another. I daydreamed constantly of your birth and how it would unfold. Some dreams were easy and light and other dreams, I would let the fear creep in. I knew our process would fall somewhere on the spectrum between birth one and two, I just wasn’t quite sure how pain and beauty would choose to share their space this time. You were born at 11:53 PM, 16 days b